Pass that point

I would say that I am more independent now than I ever have been. Thinking and making decisions for myself is the hallmark of adulthood. It is when there is no longer a person of safety between me and the unknown. I pretty much know or are as experienced as much as my own folks who used to look out for me , be it my mother, and/or older friends. I think there comes a point of time when you need to be an individual apart from always remaining in a dependent position .I really should be more optimistic about being able to take care of them , and not only just them looking out for me.

I am trying to improve my outward projection onto life, by taking necessary risks that are of course, not naive but nevertheless, deliberate and difficult so as to improve my current circumstances . One thing I have realised is that sometimes we need to find meaning in our suffering. Life is not easy, let’s us all just be honest, and we have our own struggles . I think that being able to see meaning, or an outcome at the end of the suffering helps us to push forward , bite the towel and carry on our quest for a life worth living. This is why I find depression undeniably cruel. It is basically meaningless suffering. You are suffering for no outcome and there is nothing at the end of the suffering waiting for you . It does not even have an end to be honest ,unless one makes minute steps to address it and improve a bit each day through a series of self care ( both mental and phyically) regularly.

“You might be winning but you’re not growing and growing might be the most important form of winning.”

– Jordan Peterson, clinical psychologist

This year 2020, has been the most productive year of my entire existence. It may not be most successful year but if I were to consider productivity as a measure of success, then yes 2020 is the most successful year that I have ever lived through. Amusingly, the most productive year ended up being the year of the pandemic and when things are just no longer the same. This is a good example for me to learn that despite the external environment, as long as you are focus, driven and have a vision, step by step regardless if they are small or big , you can see them through.

I am conscientious by nature, though right now, I am currently facing a burnout . I am trying to find a greater sense of fulfillment or even to just plainly go through what I need to do with sheer grit and determination. This is where the tough part comes in. I need to work on being tougher, durable to say the least. Being smart is from reading, listeing and through undergoing much and/or various experiences. I think anyone can be smart if they choose to pursue a path towards an excellence of mind, one of which I am thoroughly for.

I would say that human nature is fragile. Incremental improvements in the way we think, view a situation or even treat ourselves will be paramount to living a much healthier and contented life. I am pass the point of feeling down about the horrible deck of cards that life has handed me. Rather, I am going to create my own deck of cards, call the shots and act it out, all in faith. I think we deserve it, truly deserve it.

4 thoughts on “Pass that point

  1. Reblogged this on Ned Hamson's Second Line View of the News and commented:
    I would say that human nature is fragile. Incremental improvements in the way we think, view a situation or even treat ourselves will be paramount to living a much healthier and contented life. I am pass the point of feeling down about the horrible deck of cards that life has handed me. Rather, I am going to create my own deck of cards, call the shots and act it out, all in faith. I think we deserve it, truly deserve it.

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